Brad Leone

1204am
6/23/22

Brad Leone

I love you
Brad dad Brad dad
We love you
The Best Human to Ever EVER live

Brad Leone
Picked peonies for you
Though the fields upon fields upon
Are what you’re due

Who
Who oh who
Woulda thought
Woulda saw
A this comin’
Not I oh no no NO not I

For I have fallen completely utterly and insanely
In Mad Love with you Brad

Myself and many others
Peggy, luckiest lady Alive

But I fell before knowing you were married
And that’s ok for we can all dream

Above all Else
Brad Leone, Best Human Ever
Where is Brad’s Nobel, Purple Heart,
Where is Brad’s Grammy and Tony and Golden Globe?
Webby and SAG and and and and anddddd ?!!!
Honor this man this Most Excellent Human

HONOR HIM NOW! !!!!!!!!!!
FCK!!!!!!!!!!

How can any one single human be so spectacular
So noble
So funny
So enriching?

Saint Leone
We love you
Hail all rise all Hail
The Saint, the Comedian, all around most Excellent Superior Human

That is Brad Fucking LEONE! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SALUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I take this to the grave
Heart so full could explode
Brad is Love
Brad lives Love
Embodies manifests and is literally Love
In Human form

Convinced Brad is actually immortal
An Angel sent from Above from Heaven
Thank Heaven we do for the Saint Angel
Most Excellent
Brad Leone

πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

1218am

6/23/22

©️ Tara Bowen 2022

Fine Line

Between (wanting) to be great, do thy masterpiece And feeling an inferiority complex to those who (you admire)/ have come before you and mastered it

This i conclude is a little bit of a trap in disguise

While it’s essential to honor the greats acknowledge and so forth, lest you/ we forget, you too have a Masterpiece brewing. A chef d’oeuvre and don’t forget that. Don’t feel inferior to something to the point you lose sight of, or lose any concept of thy own genius. For that is dangerous territory and should be consciously steered clear of

Don’t forget thy own genius and what you have to offer. That’s much easier said than done for some including me.

Happy New Year πŸ™‚

‘happiness’ philosophy rethinking your goals

i’ve come to the conclusion that if your goal as is taught in many places, is to be happy, you’ll probly be disappointed . but, if your goal is to create or invent something new something that wasnt there before… you will be happy. b/c the discoveries made on your journey there will by default bring joy. happiness isnt the ‘goal’ its the by-product and its a privilege not a right. ideas of ‘happiness’ n needing to happy all the time all day everyday isnt realistic thats skewed. ‘happy’ happiness is for children n spending time w kids that is pure joy and happiness too (for me)

The Mosquito

1129am 9/22/18

The Mosquito
Tip toed in to my bedroom 1 night
Tip tip toe
Tip tip toe
WhoaaHHH what is that noise i hear!??
Instilled lots of fear !
I drew a tear one point
I was defenseless
Had no ammunition from which to draw

So i laid still
Very very still
And finally fell asleep
Not knowing if i’d wake
Will it attack me , eat me in my sleep?????????

Next night
I woke alive went to work
Came home
The noise !!
What the fck is in my bedroom?!
I hear it but see nothing
Its like a spy watching me
Or a little punk
Pranking me
AhhHHHHH
I still dont know what you are !
I only hear plastic bags ruffling
And rattling
And weird commotion
What is that motion???
I cant put my finger!!
I freeze still acute hearing in full action
I am in my doorway
Cant get away
Nowhere to run nowhere to hide!
This little fuckers got me by the balls
And i dont have balls to even
Enter my room
I still dont know what it is
Is it a mouse a rat a snake!????????????
What the fck is it!????
I only hear plastic bags moving
But a quick burst of sound
Nothing crawling or squeaking
Or anything but something knocking
In to my plastic storage bag !!
This all begins at 3am
…. I had texted 2 friends
But hadnt heard back obviously
Theyre in bed !
It is now 530am………..
Still
I
Stand
In
My
Doorway
I knock on wall i make a noise
(Roommates not home)
I am sleep deprived an hour nap in 2 days
A zombie
With palpitating heart
The heartbeat of a sprinter who just sprinted
The energy of , a zombie
But still i stand
What the fuck you little bugger !!
I have to go to work !
Oh wait no i dont
But still have things to do
And you are controlling me like this!?????
Sod off reveal thyself !!!!!
Fed up i grab my phone dial the last resort
9-1-1
I didnt want to
But i needed some sleep !
I tell her my emergency around 6am
I hear her laughing inside
‘I dont know what it is’ i say
‘It could be a mouse rat snake i dont know!!’
‘Its under my bed’ i say
I cant remove the storage bags under there to investigate
I’m afraid it will jump out at me !!
She says she’ll send someone
8am rolls around still no one
8:15, 8:30, still no one
F it i say
‘I have to go to bed i can barely stand up anymore’
With shaky hands and a pounding heart
I quickly lie down and squeeze my eyes shut
Then open
I see nor hear anything
I call 9-1-1 back
Theyre unable to give an ETA
Oh hooray wow
I could be dead by now
I close my eyes fall asleep
10minutes later ‘KNOCK KNOCK’
I say ‘coming !’
I run down and open door
‘Grab a broom and look under bed yourself this isnt crime-related nothing we can do’ says the officer
‘Huh so whyd you come out?’ i say
‘I feel endangered and defenseless and cant reach my landlord’
She says ‘sorry nothing we can do’
I go back to my room
I lie down
I realize what the fck it is
I am almost 100% certain
N it hits me
Its the fucking MOSQUITOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
YOU LITTLE BASTARD YOU !

Up all night 2nights in a row b/c of a mosquito little bastard !!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Mixed feelings of relief anger and resentment
How could something so small
MAKE SO MUCH NOISE
It was flying in to bags knocking in to them with its wings
Fly away little mosquito fly away
Never heard you by day
Only night
Did you bite me ?
Probably i dont know
Go now just go
Be gone
Experienced a living nightmare
B/c of you
Thankful thats all it was
Resentful thats what it was
I had seen it a week ago fly in to my bag
Thats how i knew and just forgot
The noise was the same
This mosquito untame
It was a big mosquito
Now i need some moscato
Some moscato
Oh
OohhHHHHHH !

1157am 9/22/18

Β© Tara Bowen

dear the Middle East

Middle east
US
Ukraine
Uruguay

Youzbekistan

You you you you you (gun shot sounds)
Yall cant learn to play nice
Yall, cant learn to play nice
How sick
Your vice
These guns, grenades

fly by as if some fckin parade!

blast off you all, to the moon

blast off you all, to the moon!

it it it it it won’t be too soon

it it it it won’t be too soon

lune, moon, here soon, you can try your antics

here soon you can try your antics

n then see how much you make these stocks tick

then see how much you make these stocks tick

antics its all antics

frantic is the state of affairs

everyday, the middle east sit(ting) in the devil’s lairs

everyday, US triggering the shares of these stockholders

oh my, not enough lets all get bolder

for it can never get cold there

the Middle east its sand dunes

all day and night nothin but BOOM BOOM BOOM

the heat strikes again

its own ‘global warming’

all year round the enemy is swarming

cowboys indians

its all just a game

how many civilians have to die

til they wake up, they too cry

when will the madness end

this idea to lend: the Middle East any country of this mentality

this i propose

BLAST OFF you all to the moon,

blast off you all to the moon!

n then try there your combat

boots

on the moon , boots

bouncing around, town of luna

you’ve all gone luny, let the cosmos

bring you back

end the attack

let the cosmos bring you back

end the attack

try warfare there

if you dare

floating amongst the stars

try warfare there, if you dare

flying by the heavens

maybe one day together

the bread we can break, unleavened.

Β© Tara Bowen, 2014

‘Got a Match?’

Match

Rivaling the other

The heat if feels like no other

Yesterday we were brothers

Today you’re just another

Another player another layer

To this already bulky thick blanket

This blanket of heat i tear off the sheet

To play on concrete is like no other feat

My feet they burn, they cringe they’re sore

But I wish to play well it’s at my very core

A burning desire hotter than this asphalt floor

Poor i grew up

But older now i yearn for that Cup

Over and over i was told ‘shut up’ we cant afford lessons

I fought i begged, i used all aggression

But not to vandalize to terrorize to burn

i channeled this flame , this here was the turn

Pointing to the sun my flame it grew bigger

It was now time, i knew i had to pull that trigger

Chasing the sun, up the hill through the heat

The summer it swelled it showed on my feet

Each day I’d make the trek up the hill through the heat

On my bike i’d hear a shrill from some crazy dude Pete

Up the hill through the heat, still chasing my sun

My flames they grew bigger

‘You’re crazy its August! go play in the pool!’

I heard this daily yonder, and was tempted to ponder

The pools, lakes the pond I yearned for the break

And once in a while I would, I’d dip do a little shake

Shake off the water, at it again

Hop on my bike it was time to dive in

Dive in to the match the game the competition

For tennis is my love, my inner flame the heat

This here is admission

This heat was my fuel i did not own a car

All i needed was my passion, lessons werent

Too terribly far

Me and my bike, 5 days a week

To the court i’d crunch, sometimes skip out on lunch

My mom would call me in ‘its time to eat to sleep!’

I cant mom not yet! I am taking a leap

A leap of faith a leap over the pond

A leap across the lily pad

I never met my dad

But my mom did her best, she was raising us two

‘Mom i wish to make you proud there’s a hole in my shoe’

This hole it shines it’s a badge

For all my summer’s hard work

Around the corner the bullies did lurk

They sneered they jeered they to this day bully

But never completely did i know them fully

I was doing tennis it was and is my life

I never felt the need to carry a Swiss army knife

My bike it was defense, my overall abstinence

From bullies , but not bullfrogs, i always made time

For play in the thick summer air

These times they were rare

But play i would with the bullfrogs n the lily pads

I’d hop skip n jump , n often wonder bout me dad

Whats he like would he be proud? It ignited

a flame

i wanted to shout loud

‘Dad where are you i want you to see me play!’

I’d often think day to day

But with my mom by my side, my hero that cant

be denied

I shied from the bullies stayed clear stayed on track

This to myself i made a pact

A pact to shine , i want this sun i want it to be known

Never did i wake up to lessons with any kind of groan

For i was thankful, i was on scholarship, my kind coach

He reared me he honed my skill

it blocked out crazy Pete’s shrill

Over the hill and through the woods

To my homemade pyrotechnics

My goal to set the court on fire in this

summer heat ignited by my desire

Desire to win desire to play

Desire to survive

My match it awaits

As does my fishin baits

and match i will this heat so long as Earth

lets me stay on my feet

this urban jungle can prove faulty

so thirsty i’d even drink the ocean salty

But this is the day the time the moment

since i could walk ive always been hell bent

hell bent on winning on championships this fire

this heat the flames i endure them i swim in them

the flaming august is my stake at which i burn

i refuse to repeat any past mistakes i cont to learn

Joan of Arc i will burn i will flame

a martyr i since have become for this very game

 

Β© Tara Bowen, 2014

Window- the Widower, the ‘other one’, Hitched and the Young

4 men. One married, one too young, 2 newly single- you holla’d at me. sometimes i holla back but not to hang

i do not wish to bang

i am not that kind of girl

my hair it has lots of curl

i wanna hang out as friends thats cool- some thats all you meant n thats fine

i am glad i do not have to draw a line

i am flattered ya’ll thought of me at all!

For male attention is something for whichΒ i used to fall

got duped, got me heart broke

Sometimes i prefer it in a choke

hold

your breath dont get uptight

my status was not to make light or cause

any fight

just a mere observation of a bizarre alignment of men

texting my phone, none of whom were named Ben

Kronberg is one of my favorite comedians

He was just on Seth Meyers i watched while

nomming on Breyer’s icecream

you scream

we all scream

and from the top of my attic window the sun beam

wakes me in da morn

i feel its warm glow its a good way to wake

versus that time in Reston, VA i felt the earthquake

that was cool too who can say they experienced that?

it was 3pm i’m glad i was not gettin a tatt

Oodles of love i feel for you i feel for many, i for the

life of me, dont know how people drink Henny

I hope to run in to ya’ll one day at a Denny’s, my cab

driver once, his name was Kenny,Β he asked me out

to the Catskills to go antiquing

what did he hear in the back seat

none other than my laughter leaking

‘whats so funny?’ he said

i said ‘nothin honey, i could be your granddaughter but here’s

the money’ i paid my fare went up the hill

there was no Jack but then again…….. my names not Jill.

The End πŸ™‚ mwah.

 

Β© Tara Bowen, 2014